In a surprisingly depressing one-hour special for the Today Show entitled Kate: Her Story airing Monday on TLC, Kate Gosselin reveals that she’s having a very difficult time trusting those around her and that she will always love Jon in one form or another.

Kate claims to have “a very, very small group of people” who are supporting her, though we’re guessing she has more followers than her soon-to-be unemployed ex.

Despite the father of eight’s outlandish behavior Kate says that she continues to wake up every morning thinking the phone will ring “and it’ll be … the old Jon.”

What’s more, she stills loves him.

"A part of me always will," she said through tears. "It's hard to be married to somebody for 10 years and try to say, No I don’t love them anymore."

Perhaps the saddest part of the special is when Kate disclosed that her children are “starting to show signs of stress and behavioral changes.” We cannot fathom being in their position, can you?

Hopefully these poor kids will be able to find some peace once Jon & Kate Plus 8 goes off the air later this month. (New York Daily News)

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